Hello Muku and Mouli bête,
NEW YEAR BEGiNS without you: unacceptable. my new year will begin only after giving you a big hug.
No matter what the world tells you but the fact is that your papa is still alive just for you; else I don’t have any interest left in this world whatsoever. You mummy says “All is left” but what is there for me to think about and construct in my life when you are not there in front of my eyes. Imagine, haven’t spoken to or seen you in SIX MONTHS . it is like a perpetual nightmare that has decided to continue on and on and on.
I love you so much that whenever I even think of you tears start flowing and at times I literally have to hide my face to prevent the response from the on lookers. I am a brave dad coz I refuse to die and refuse to give up in the hope that some day I will get to meet you and hug you and tell you how much I love you.
Today 5th of jan is Yogananda Paramhansa’s birthday and instead of giving him a gift I have again asked him for a gift that is the gift of life for dying man : to get his family back.
Your mom, it seems has closed all doors for any reconnection with her estranged husband but you dad is not giving up and will keep trying till his last breaths.
Well your caps (muku’s green one and mouli’s red one) give me real comfort and instantly make me feel as if holding your delicate hands , even your mummie’s black shawl does the same job, these are the only things left here at karol bagh through which I connect with you people.
I really miss you very much and its only a miracle and the grace of great yogi’s like Paramhansji and Sri Aurobindo and all my spiritual experiments like meditation that I am still alive.
I will wait for you all. Love you forever
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