happy new year muku mouli bulli and all

hi bulli this is mail written to dada bhai in the hope that it would rach you so that i cut my feelings across.i am not comfortable here in delhi without my family and slowly i am disssolving inside. i want to do waht any father wants to do for his children and i will pay for all there expenses and i will ask my advocate to convey this to you advocate on the next hearing, i believe he had conveyed that i wanted to give 15,ooo rs per month and you know that all my insurance savings are also for my children and you and i will give it in written.
please speak with me and please allow me to speak with my kids , i am begging you.
Hi dada bhai,
End of the year, but no endings of sorrow in our house where the people from whom the happiness got its definition are not there.
I cant even talk to my family even to wish them new year’s greetings, I hope you will convey to bulli that I am really missing her and my kids. Bulli must know that I am willing to take full responsibility of children and all their needs should be fulfilled. Please tell her to talk to me and please allow the kids to at least talk to me so that their voice could replenish my dying inner self.
All this situation is becoming so complex, these court proceedings, filing of affidavits and objections and so on, I am just missing my time with my family, plain and simply I am just dragging my soul all alone here in delhi hoping for reuniting with them.
Please ask bulli to at least make me speak with kids so that I could wish them a akk the happiness in the coming year.
That swine flu patient, 15 year old boy, recovered and was discharged from the hospital yesterday, in the process of his management even I got affected by the h1n1 virus but unfortunately I recovered simply by the tamiuflu tablets although I was hoping that god would relieve finally. Irony of the situation that my name was recommended to the health minister for the exemplary services as I stayed on for that child, till late in hospital when most of the doctors were scared to even visit the ward. His parents thanked me for returning their jewel back BUT who will know what propelled me to take that decision of 24X7 duty in swine flu ward , anyways that child is back with his family and I am happy for him and I wil do the same for any other patient but I am missing my family too much and want bulli to realize this and I am also
Willing to take full financial responsibility of their upbringing, but how to put it across her when I am not even allowed to speak to her. I want to do so many things for them but HOW? How should I let bulli know that I am living for them only and how to get my feelings across her? I just want to speak to my babies, please please please tell her to at least give them the phone for just 5 minutes , I just want to hear their voices. I am not going to harm them by speaking to them and I promise I wont even make them feel uncomfortable in ways and take care that they don’t get disturbed emotionally, I know my children they must be missing them and I know bulli also , she also must be missing me but just tell her that It is very difficult to live on like this when all the time you are thinking of your family and cant even speak to them.
Please god, please make my feelings reach her heart and please have mercy,
Happiness of the new year will be awaited in this house and in my heart.
Happy new Year to all