missing you like crazy

hi muku mouli bulli,
i miss you all so much that cant be expressed words, it feels like i am not alive anymore. most of the time i dont know what i am doing - self talking and hallucinating and imagening that all of you are there in the house in the other room, i can hear your voices and and jsut feel like calling you people as if you were there next to me. the moment i go out of the house every thing and every place reminds me of you and it is very very very painfull to find myself all alone and at night this feeling of loneliness turns into somekind of intense fear and i have to put the lights on thruout the night coz otherwise i cant sleep,
i know i cant do anything about it coz it's not in my hands to bring you people back but i am not loosing my faith in god - i will meet you some day and then you would realize that all that i have been telling you was not a lie but plain truth.